• 17:38 Michael Jackson died today in an LA hospital after being admitted due to are cardiac arrest. He was 50. #

• 13:14 @m4rkym4rk LMAO! #
• 13:20 @m4rkym4rk that's awesome! Too bad i don't get cable anymore. I LOVE that show! :-) #

• 14:01 Life is this amazing gift that most seem to take for granted. #

• 09:42 How many people live beyond their means just to keep up appearances? #

So I think the copywriting job is a bust. :( Oh well. Life goes on and chances are I'll never see the money from it. Writing such things isn't easy, but what's even more difficult is showing the end product to the client and them questioning whether they could have written the same thing in less time for free...if you thought that originally then why did you hire me?

See, the client gives me notes, very rough notes, they tell me what they are looking for and I take said notes and make it all sound pretty and professional and such. It takes about 3 drafts. (I really should have taken that technical writing class in college...) I think in the future I'll attach all 3 drafts plus the original notes. Because it really hit me hard when my work was summed up by my client as simply adding a few words to the notes they'd given me. Really?! A misplaced word could make or break a deal. I pulled out all my old texts to make sure my phrasing was done correctly and the punctuation was correct. I'm the one with the degree in English, that's why you came to me.

So I'm on the hunt again. My resume for childcare is out there on the interwebs.Sittercity.com and Care.com. Mikey and Carson won't need me come Fall and I'll need work. Car payments don't make themselves. :P I love my nanny work. It's flexible, and I'm not stuck at a desk 5 days a week8 plus hours a day. Sometimes I wonder if that wouldn't be such a bad thing. At least then I'd know for sure that I'd be getting my full hours. But with the way my brain works I'm better off not working in an office. I do better as a nanny or a freelancer. I need at least$10 an hour and I want full time work. Or at least 3 full days of work a week.

I could take a course in copywriting and possibly walk out of there with clients paying up front in large sums, but who's got an extra $300-500 laying around? Not I. My portfolio is very tiny and at the moment my resources very limited. I have mad office skills, if only people would get over this whole idea of needing to be in this business professional dress. I can look pretty damned classy in jeans and a great shirt. Plus I'm more comfortable and I'll get more work done that way. Is unemployment an option? Not really, bad enough I'm contemplating food stamps. Even if I went to Wendy's and managed to some how to get a full time job there, at what, crappy minimum wage?That would sink me into a terrible depression and I'd still barely scrape by.

I want to be at a place where I can afford my own place. Or at least my own rent on a room. I'm just not there yet. Bills total to $700 a month and somehow I manage to make it. Kippers has been of little help. He pays me$100 every few weeks when it fits his fancy. He picks and chooses which texts he'll acknowledge he's received from me. So I refuse to calculate that into money I have, because it's unreliable. He promised to deposit some money the end of last week, it's now Tuesday and still nothing... so yeah. Rot.

Things are good for the most part. Something is missing, I can feel it, can't place my finger on what exactly though.

My craftiness is picking up. Rose and I have been painting a lot, as soon as I finish one I'll take a pic and post it. I've also gotten back into cross-stitching and want to start making my own line of hand made cards. Possibly open up my Etsy site and see how that goes, just to supplement my income some.

Going to do my best to make the one week this month and another next month that I don't work and really get cracking on things.

Was hoping to make a road trip out to Utah, but not sure I'll have the funds for it.Want to see my sister and my new niece. We'll see. Maybe I'll get lucky.

I'm volunteering at the library this summer. 2 hours a day 2 days a week for the Summer Reading Program(SRP). It's for ages 0 to 199.

Children learn from a young age to love and respect books. They love being read to and seeing the colorful fanciful pictures they contain. Young adults seem to enjoy it for the escape from their own reality, or finding novels that relate to their own lives and realizing they aren't the only ones that feel the way they do. And adults, we read for many reasons.

Every parent that stops to sign up their child from the SRP I encourage to sign themselves up. It's easy, simply 5 hours a month worth of reading. There is no reading log for the adults. It's on an honor system. Reading is not limited to novels. It's anything you read, from your newspaper to your emails. The junk mail we receive daily in the mail and the tens of memos you receive from co-workers. The news letters your children bring home from school and activities of the like. We read menus,street signs, construction warnings, bumper stickers along with the billboards we pass as we travel down the road. In essence we read well more than 5 hours a month, we probably read at least that much in a week.

I've wanted many a child create games based on books they've read. It sparks the imagination and inspires new ways of thinking. Find a child, grab a book and read. Turn off the TV. It's summer and the possibilities are endless. Money is tight all over this nation, find free/cheap educational entertainment.

Sometimes I think I've filled my plate too full by volunteering not one day but two at the library. It's worth it. Every time I'm there I'm thanked for helping out. We make it possible for the Librarian's to focus more on their main jobs instead of answering the same age old questions concerning the SRP.

It's an easy job for me and I'm always more than happy to help others with anything they may need, if I have the information. I feel I cannot limit my duties simply by my job description. That's just silly. I wonder why others have volunteered their time. One woman I work with has been volunteering at the library for a while now, not just for the SRP. Her children are grown and she enjoys helping where she can. She's a real joy to work with.However, another I work with, we'll call her Jan, I'm really uncertain why she chose to volunteer at the library for the SRP. It's apparent she's bored and lonely. Her children are grown and they will not have any grand babies for her. She has no computer skills though and seems bent on doing only her job and nothing more.

It's great that she's finding things too with all her spare time but I feel she'd be more satisfied volunteering elsewhere. She doesn't even enjoy reading that much.Apparently it's been years since she last picked up a book. ...Wait,what?! You've volunteered for the Summer READING Program and you don't like reading? Why are you even in the library? … Ok, so it's never to late to pick up the habit again and maybe this will do her good. But she doesn't explain to the patrons why she sends them to the kiosk to sign up for the program instead of her doing it herself.If it's more than one or two people signing up it's easier for them to do it themselves on the computer and then come back for me to explain everything. (Think about it, if you don't know how to spellDannemiller and you had to type it into the computer 3 times wouldn'tit be faster if they did it themselves?) But she just points withoutasking how many and sends them on their way. Of course, I watched Janyesterday try to enroll 2 children into they system because their momwas too busy and OMG, someone get her AWAY from that laptop! Thiswoman doesn't even have an email address. She's not old enough to bemy grandmother, in fact, at most she's 60. Ok, no biggie...I think,but not knowing what minimizing means? She refuses to leave the SRPpage because she doesn't know how to get back. Honestly I'm not evensure she'd know where to go. I'm a multi tasking freak so I've gotseveral tabs open in IE (The bane of my existence.)

I find it very easy to piss this womanoff. I don't do it on purpose and she pretends that she's just givingme a hard time, but she's not, she's serious. I'm learning to justshut my mouth when she tries to help someone. We've been at this forover 3 weeks now, she too volunteers 2 days a week and yet she stilltrips over her words and doesn't have a routine on how to set peopleup and ask them questions. This shall all become very entertainingonce we start handing out prizes to the children and she startsinterrogating them on what they've read.

• 12:28 I'm thankful for volunteers but wish those that sign up know how to use the equipment required to do the job. Like how to use a computer! #

• 12:05 Painting weather day! :-) #

• 15:29 Chocolate milk rocks! #

• 10:02 If we are made of the gods, how can we be a sin? It is unthinkable that we should be brought into this world a sin. #
• 10:02 The body is a gift from the gods, not a curse. We should embrace it and celebrate it in all its forms and beauty. #

• 13:50 @m4rkym4rk No. Some are more so than others. Either way, it sucks to be stuck in the middle of it. :( #
• 15:59 @m4rkym4rk i survived. Another car payment ready to be made. :-) it's birthday week now. ;-) #

• 17:32 @Selena_Fox Welcome to Colorado! Today is most definately a beautiful day. :-) #

• 14:04 Let the insane work a thon begin! #
• 14:25 @m4rkym4rk yeah i'm working everyday from now until next tuesday! #

• 19:05 I am waiting for the Grateful Dead concert to start! :-) awesome night here i come! #

• 20:32 @Selena_Fox i had a wonderful Beltane despite the rain. It's gonna be a good year. #